Thank you all
Sorry for the really late reply
I've been all over the place and in and out of A&E. Things aren't great but they aren't at crisis point. It's pretty much the story of my life at the moment.
A PALS complaint has been put it against he nurse.
I just have to wait for the outcome. I don't expect anything will happen, but at least I complained I guess.
A friend of mine is in a really bad way and in hospital at the moment, I am finding that difficult. She is suicidal and my heart sinks knowing how unwell she is at the moment. As soon as I can I will go see her. On top of that my 'best friend' told me I am difficult and that I am choosing to take things the wrong way. And that it's my fault basically. I'm not talking to her and I'm feeling awful and angry etc regarding that. Plus I am now without medication as I couldn't get a repeat prescription from my GP. So my head and thoughts are bad and all over the place.
I have been having nightmares every night too about difficult things. I wake up in a state and scared and on edge and agitated and can't calm down. I will see my sister soon and I am looking forward to that as I have felt like I need her but at the same time I feel like avoiding people given things that have gone on recently.
I don't know. I'm struggling. I can't trust anyone. I missed my appointment with my CCO and haven't seen her in weeks. I don't know anymore.