UPDATE, saw gp and I don't think she was as prepared as she needed to be because I told some stuff about life growing up and I could see her holding back tears, I told her I was scared of wasting anyone's time and she told me I definitely wasnt a time waster, she said she sees a lot of time wasters so she can tell a genuine patient from a time waster. That made me feel better. Shes set me up for weekly apps with her but warned me that she will be away for a few weeks soon but not to worry as she isnt abandoning me. and is doing a semi urgent referral to a psychiatrist for suitable meds. Feel a lil better just anxious to see what goes on with psychiatrist.