Not too sure if anyone's bothered but thought I'd share some happiness with you all.
Things have been pretty good lately. My therapy is hard but I go every week and open up. I made my therapist sad during the last session as I was talking about all of the neglect I suffered and my mum abandoning me a lot as a child. She said it's all very sad and she looked emotional. I don't like to upset people but in a strange way it was nice because it makes me feel better as I worry I've overreacted about the things that have happened in my past, she kind of reaffirmed that it was all very traumatic and it's ok to be a bit broken as a result.
I've realised that it's not going to work with D. I mentioned to him a few weeks back about me moving down there and he quickly changed the subject so I guess I know where I stand with him now. Trying to distance myself from him. I've been getting close to a guy and I'm going to meet him properly this weekend which is exciting. He has the combination I have been searching for as he's a Dom but also incredibly sweet, caring and protective. I'm hoping it works out.
It's been over 2 months since I last SH'ed, 3 months since I last OD'ed and I haven't purged in 10 months. I'm definitely not all fixed but I do spend 90% of my time now feeling happy and smiling. I feel like the real me again. The black cloud has passed and the suns shining and it's an amazing feeling. Thought I'd share a bit of happiness.
Sorry I haven't been helping anyone, I just don't seem to have much time to myself anymore but I'll try and get on when I can. Stay safe everyone and keep smiling