stressed out *sh*

[Lily Kym]

i think getting it looked at would be a very good idea hun.
let yourself get looked after a little ok?

you're very very hard on yourself xx

[phoebe_monkey]

I guess it wouldn't hurt to go to minor injuries... they can't make me see psych or out of hours if it's a different city. Bruises are really obvious tho

[angeldevil123]

im sure they wouldn't jump to too many conclusions just say you work in tesco etc and its a part of the job

[Lily Kym]

how did it go hun?
xx

[angeldevil123]

i hope it went okay

[phoebe_monkey]

Only just got home because I spent the rest of the day having to do boring fathers-day stuff (I left at 9.15am). I managed to go to minor injuries this morning. Just told the receptionist that I'd fallen but the practitioner person (whose badge said she was a physio) was very nice so I managed to tell her what I'd done. She was lovely and kind. Got my hand/wrist x-rayed and I haven't broken anything. I know that's a good thing, but my head is just telling me that I'm such a failure I can't even manage to break a bone. Eurgh stupid head.

Considering going to see gp tomorrow. But that involves phoning, which is scary  I need more medications though (that aren't on repeats) and I sort of want to tell her about my sh getting more out of control and starting to see/feel things that aren't there which is freaking me out. I tried texting my cpn last week but she never replied. Maybe I'm not worth the effort.

[Lily Kym]

you are worth the effort. you've done really really well - especially talking to someone new.
well done xx xx

[phoebe_monkey]

Thanks.

I just don't get why my head is so screwed up. I mean I was actually disappointed I hadn't broken a bone. Which is messed up. I think the physio woman could sort of tell because she said 'there's no broken bones, that's a good thing' and repeated it when I didn't look very happy. She took the time to look at the harms on my other arm too and re-dress them for me, which was nice of her.

[Lily Kym]

[phoebe_monkey]

Managed to phone and get a GP appointment. Thankfully got through pretty quickly (their phone line opens at 8.45am) so I didn't have to keep redialing and get more anxious. still not really sure what I'm going to say to her though