had enough *trig* *sui*

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No increases as of yet. GP wanted me to hold out another month but i'll call them tomorrow.

Just so terrified i'll never get better. What if this is just me? I don't want to live like this. I'm only holding on to please other people, but the fight in me has gone.

I miss my ex so much, I miss my friends. I just can't cope, it's all too much.

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I just want out

[greenday]

ya keep fighting your strong have a good day and be happy 

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thanks,
Just feel so odd and disconnected from surroundings, but at the same time everything hurts so much- sorry I don't know if that makes sense

[is_it_true]

 
makes perfect sense to me! I often feel like that.
Keep talking if it helps.xx

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Just feel so panicky and depressed, what is the point in living if you don't want to be here? its for other people.

Friends have slipped away with boyfriend. They're all going to theatre fundraiser tonight but are going with the boys ex lived with and ex so i'm left behind. Just feel like they've picked him over me. I want him back but it'll never happen. how can i make him see i've been ill?

I need to revise but I just can't, can feel a panic attack coming on

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couldn't face going out, at home.
why can't i just face life?

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Have to rehearse with ex tomorrow, don't know what to say/dp

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meeting up with ex today to talk. I said I wouldn't mention relationship. I don't know what to say Just want him back, he's just seen a horrible side to me this whole relationship and I know we could have worked. I'm getting help now and facing up to everything- I couldn't change whilst I didn't have that help. He said he wasn't happy with me and is now its over, but I found out hes been at the counsellor so I'm not sure if I believe it. Everyone tells me to move on, but I can't, I love him.

I've lost all my friends because of this. They're frustrated with me and telling me to 'snap out of it.' They're spending time with him because hes coping by going out and getting drunk which I can't do.

I just feel so alone. How do I fix this?