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Author Topic: only place I can be honest (sh)(su)  (Read 179 times)
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« on: May 22, 2012, 06:30:58 PM »

I am tired of fighting the battle of depression and self harm on a daily basis, I had a replacement heart valve in February and haven't been able to sh since as i am on warfarin,and the risk of bacterial endocarditis. last Wednesday I had a crisis but I got through it, but daily since I have been struggling with the urges, tomorrow I have a day on my own and haven't got any plans but can't go anywhere as I am waiting for some recorded delivery post.  I have asked friends via facebook if anyone is free, but I don't want people to feel obligated to 'baby sit' me.  I already feel that I am headed for a melt down, I can't tell my daughter as she worries about me anyway, stephen (hubby) is also already worried, and to be honest so am I.  I really don't know what to do, sh was my coping strategy and now I can't use it.  I know it shouldn't be one to use but have been doing it for over 20 years, I feel lost.  Before when I have tried to stop, the sh urges turned into su urges, and then I had a choice. I know there is nothing anyone can do for me and it's so frustrating. Sorry to rant.

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« Reply #1 on: May 23, 2012, 10:16:23 AM »

Od looks good about now!!!
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« Reply #2 on: May 23, 2012, 10:52:29 AM »

Hi just seen your message,can you reach out to someone,I know its hard but taking an od is not the only way,please keep talking hugs xx
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« Reply #3 on: May 23, 2012, 12:19:46 PM »

Chocolate n Valium! Prescription dose only
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