Thank you, means a lot xx
Can't sleep. Feel so desperate for it all to end. All I can see in my head is myself swallowing hundreds of pills, or jumping in front of a train, or jumping off of a building. Being torchered by the images.
Am on more than the max recommended dose of my AD, the max dose of my AP. none of it works. Why do I still feel like this?? Why don't the meds stop these thoughts?? I'm just not cut out for life at all.
Thinking about ringing crisis, but can't pluck up the courage to ring. The thought of them saying there is nothing they can do would just push me over the edge.
I really want to die. I really do. I know it would hurt people, that's why I'm trying not to do it. But I'm in pain. Deep emotional pain and I want it all to stop.