Saw psychologist today. It went ok. Didn't talk about anything upsetting as we both thought I wouldn't cope with that at the moment. He said I present as I'm in a deep depression. Lack of energy, loss of motivation, slow speech, avoiding eye contact, suicidal thoughts etc... He is going to feed back to care team to see if they can offer me extra support and/or a med review.
CPN rang just before 5. She is only available tomorrow afternoon this week and I am working so cant see her until next Tues. Don't think she had spoke to psychologist as she didn't mention anything he said.
Trying to psyche myself up for swimming this evening. Not feeling at all confident and would rather not go, but feel I should as I've paid for the lesson. Usually go with mum but she's away so have to motivate myself.
Everything is just a big struggle.