Having a hard night again. Being flooded with memories from my teenage years. Not nice memories. Drinking solvent abuse, SH, suicide attempts, hallucinations, delusions. Its like watching it all on a video.
Have had a good day today too. Was my birthday. I swam for the first time without a float. I hoped this year was going to be a better one, now Im not so sure.
Cant sleep and stuck ruminating over bad thoughts and bad memories