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Offline Lily Kym

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crap **trig**
« on: April 16, 2012, 06:40:53 PM »
Really feeling low today. Lower than i have for a long time.

Walked out of work earlier.
Faked being happy for bf as we had a property to view.

But im in so much pain with  my back today. Really did too much over the weekend, and bf didn't help me hardly. Set up a room today and did further damage.

Also, have stomach cramp (and period) and i'm so upset it's unreal.

Can't sit properly cos of my back, can't stand properly cos of stomach cramp which is making my legs weak at the tops.
have taken maximum painkillers i'm allowed to so far, though im very tempted to finish them.

I put my new tool in the bathroom earlier as i'd hid it away a few days ago, but now i really want to cut. just don't see the point in not doing it now.

such an idiot i am. i know that.

sorry for ranting i dont know where else to talk or who to talk to
sorry


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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #1 on: April 16, 2012, 06:49:09 PM »
Hey lovely :hug1:

Im sorry you're feeling so low.

Do heat packs help at all? Or have you ever tried a TENS machine?

You've said before about the negatives of sh hun, can you try to focus on those?

You're not an idiot, at all :hug1:

Please dont be sorry, talk here as much as you need to xxx
Thank you all so much for your support, I really appreciate it.
Please, all keep as safe as you can.

I will be thinking of you xxxxx :hug1: :hug

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #2 on: April 16, 2012, 06:55:21 PM »
aw hun, so sorry your in pain and struggling xxxx

were work OK with you leaving early ? xxx
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Offline Lily Kym

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #3 on: April 16, 2012, 07:04:00 PM »
i dont know if they were or not bg , i told him to "go f*** yourself" as i left  :hug2:
just dont care anymore

feel like a balloon thats been popped
all deflated
had stupid hopes which haven't panned out

tried a TENS machine when i first had sciatica a few years back, after doc told me to. it doesn't work though. havent got a hot water bottle :( dont know where it is now  :hug2:

i have .. vodka. and a bath. and my tool.
its enough right??

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #4 on: April 16, 2012, 07:07:58 PM »
I'm sure they'll understand hun, you've been through so much lately xxx

what are you planning on doing with all that hun?  really worried about you ... can you throw vodka away .. where's your bf tonight? will he be able to sit with you ?  I think you need to have company xx

keep talking xxx
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Offline Faded~Lady

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #5 on: April 16, 2012, 07:18:08 PM »
Cuz  :1059: :1059:
Only those who dare, truly live.
- Ruth P. Freedman

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #6 on: April 16, 2012, 07:19:46 PM »
 :hug1: :hug2: :hug1:
When you feel like letting go, hold on.

Courage does not always roar.
Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow".

Maryanne Radanbacher
 
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Offline Lily Kym

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #7 on: April 16, 2012, 07:49:03 PM »
bf is gaming.
im still on the sofa.
can't ge3t up yet

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #8 on: April 16, 2012, 07:51:11 PM »
Relax cuz xxx
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Offline Lily Kym

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Re: crap **trig**
« Reply #9 on: April 16, 2012, 07:53:23 PM »
how?
have cleaning to do
need to go bath
have to water plants
need to start contacting utilities about move
need to call my dad
want to sleep and not wake up