Really feeling low today. Lower than i have for a long time.
Walked out of work earlier.
Faked being happy for bf as we had a property to view.
But im in so much pain with my back today. Really did too much over the weekend, and bf didn't help me hardly. Set up a room today and did further damage.
Also, have stomach cramp (and period) and i'm so upset it's unreal.
Can't sit properly cos of my back, can't stand properly cos of stomach cramp which is making my legs weak at the tops.
have taken maximum painkillers i'm allowed to so far, though im very tempted to finish them.
I put my new tool in the bathroom earlier as i'd hid it away a few days ago, but now i really want to cut. just don't see the point in not doing it now.
such an idiot i am. i know that.
sorry for ranting i dont know where else to talk or who to talk to