i dont know if they were or not bg , i told him to "go f*** yourself" as i left

just dont care anymore
feel like a balloon thats been popped
all deflated
had stupid hopes which haven't panned out
tried a TENS machine when i first had sciatica a few years back, after doc told me to. it doesn't work though. havent got a hot water bottle

dont know where it is now

i have .. vodka. and a bath. and my tool.
its enough right??