Just that I still do stupid things, like SH, that I'm consantly filled with doubts, that I'm just not enough.
All of that is down to low confidence in yourself. It's really crap to feel like that, but it's not true. Your head tells you it is, but that isn't how people see you
I find that really hard to believe though. I know me better than anyone else so surely I know the truth - others only know what I let show.
I have a night to myself at my house tonight. Part of me is really looking forward to peace and quiet, part of me is dreading it because it gives too much opportunity and chance to revert to *negative* behaviours. I'm with fella tomorrow, but then have the weekend here as well which gives even more opportunity
I don't know if I feel pleased or scared or what??
ED woman is back at work, she cam eback yesterday after 5 weeks off sick. She's not emailed me yet though, stupid that I'm really wanting her to. My last email to her was abit of a splurge...