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« Reply #20 on: April 10, 2012, 10:24:09 AM » |
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Just that I still do stupid things, like SH, that I'm consantly filled with doubts, that I'm just not enough.
All of that is down to low confidence in yourself. It's really crap to feel like that, but it's not true. Your head tells you it is, but that isn't how people see you  |
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« Reply #21 on: April 11, 2012, 06:57:17 PM » |
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Just that I still do stupid things, like SH, that I'm consantly filled with doubts, that I'm just not enough.
All of that is down to low confidence in yourself. It's really crap to feel like that, but it's not true. Your head tells you it is, but that isn't how people see you I find that really hard to believe though. I know me better than anyone else so surely I know the truth - others only know what I let show. I have a night to myself at my house tonight. Part of me is really looking forward to peace and quiet, part of me is dreading it because it gives too much opportunity and chance to revert to *negative* behaviours. I'm with fella tomorrow, but then have the weekend here as well which gives even more opportunity  I don't know if I feel pleased or scared or what?? ED woman is back at work, she cam eback yesterday after 5 weeks off sick. She's not emailed me yet though, stupid that I'm really wanting her to. My last email to her was abit of a splurge... |
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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« Reply #22 on: April 13, 2012, 06:36:41 PM » |
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I can't believe how much weight I've put on. I could see it but kept trying tp convince myself my view was 'distorted', but now I know I have. The scales confirm it.
Horrible horrible horrible horrible horrible.
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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« Reply #23 on: April 13, 2012, 09:05:51 PM » |
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Sorry, I know I keep bumping  ED woman hasn't emailed still. I thought she might yesterday as Thursday was a regular day, but nothing. I keep thinking of emailing her but what if my emails were part of why she went off sick? What if my dumping on her, whingeing and moaning was triggering, iritating, annoying? She's been through enough cr@p in her life without me adding more. I wish I was strong enough to shut up. |
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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mirrhi
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« Reply #24 on: April 17, 2012, 06:38:09 PM » |
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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« Reply #25 on: April 17, 2012, 06:41:45 PM » |
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please dont be sorry for posting, post as much as you need to  Im sorry that the email support has been withdrawn - do you have other support that may be able to take its place? Pathetic selfish irrelevant witch
 You're not any of those things hun please keep talking xxx |
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24th April - I can't pm so I hope everyone that has supported me can see this. Thank you all so much for your support, I really appreciate it. I am leaving the forum, didnt want to go without saying anything. Please, all keep as safe as you can. I will be thinking of you x :hug |
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« Reply #26 on: April 17, 2012, 06:42:35 PM » |
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im sure i posted on here on the 14th? im really confused now as fmw said - post as much as you need to hun please keep talking x |
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Do what you feel in your heart to be right, for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't (Eleanor Roosevelt) you can be the Official Results Telling Officer  |
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« Reply #27 on: April 17, 2012, 06:50:45 PM » |
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Im sorry that the email support has been withdrawn - do you have other support that may be able to take its place?
No, that was the only thing I still had. I can't attend the groups any more because I've moved. im sure i posted on here on the 14th? im really confused now
Thank you Lily, just knowing that helps I feel so pathetic though. I suspected this was coming, she's struggled with ED and depression herself, has been off sick for 5 weeks, been back at work for 2 weeks but not emailed until tonight. So if I suspected it why the F*** am I crying so much??? |
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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« Reply #28 on: April 17, 2012, 06:58:03 PM » |
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I'm scared. Now I've started to cry it feels like the floodgates have opened and I only know one way to stop it.
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I guess it's funnier from where you're standing, Cause from over here I missed the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing, I've done it again, another number for your notes
I'll be your clown, behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh, cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me...
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« Reply #29 on: April 17, 2012, 07:00:40 PM » |
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Even if you suspected it might be coming hun its still a shock when it does Keep talking to us. What distractions usually help for you? Even if its just for 10mins? xxx
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24th April - I can't pm so I hope everyone that has supported me can see this. Thank you all so much for your support, I really appreciate it. I am leaving the forum, didnt want to go without saying anything. Please, all keep as safe as you can. I will be thinking of you x :hug |
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