thanks for thinking of me and asking how I am
Walking at 5:30am!! Lovely time to be out in the world, although thinking maybe you weren't overly enjoying yourself? Birds are very busy singing at that time aren't they?
I'm doing a little better thanks. Haven't harmed again, and hidden tool away. Thinking about getting rid of it completely.
Cancelled the follow-up appointment with the chap I didn't get on with. I just thought well he upset me so much last time saying insenstive things. It wasn't helpful and I've asked for teh CBT referral so it's just a waste of time, and worse might actually be damaging for me.
Had a wobbble cos I had a letter saying that after late May I won't get paid anymore if I still can't work. I had been planning to go back before then anyway, but suddenly felt like it was being forced on me and made me feel guilty and useless for having to have time off, but talked to a couple of friends and found a more positive perspective. Told my boss I'm going back on the 7th May (will be a phased return) and have decided to look at it as something to give me some positive momentum.
Had a letter from CBT people basically asking me to confirm that I still want the service, so posted reply slip straight back yesterday and hoping I won't have to wait too long.
Also had hospital appointment yesterday for shoulder (it dislocates but due to my naturally flexible joints) They don't want to operate on it, which I'm pleased about, so I can carry on with physio. Plus going back to work will mean I can use the gym again so I'm focussing on that!
Gradually getting my house straight too, which is helping me feel better.
Blimey that's a lot of stuff there!