Reeta - that is terrible! What a thing to say. Hope you're ok now.
Well, managed to calm down and kept safe - yaay. Went to on call gp this morning, had to wait ages, was climbing up the walls, trying not to cry, loads of people staring at the snivelly girl in the corner *shudder* anyway, am now signed off work. Phew, and crap all at once. Is always hard to admit defeat. But hopefully can use the space to get to a more positive place. Got appt for normal gp in a couple of weeks and will ask for referral to counsellor I think.
Had a good long chat with Mum which was mostly helpful, sort of skipped over the SH as it's the only thing she really doesn't understand. She said "I assume the sh hasn't started again" and Ijust said "err, that's not a good assumption to make" and she said "oh no" and we carried on with the other stuff. It's so awkward to discuss with people that care about you who have no experience of it isn't it? THere's a group in my town for women with SH issues, I might try to go along to that some time, but sounds too scary atm.
Brain is completely fryed but wierdly a bit stiller this afternoon so am gonna have a mug amnesty (haven't done much washing up lately - oops) and maybe paint my nails and just try to not think about all this stuff for a while.
Thanks for taking the trouble to write back.