I'm in a bit of a don't know what to do situation, so thought I could post in here as you are the poeple who have been affected it this kinda thing first hand, if that makes sense. I wonder wether to tell anyone about my sh issues, the first time and only time I have ever been caught was 3 years ago when I was 13 years old, my mum came down stairs and noticed the bandage in my wrist, and asked me.....I just said oh I caught it nothing to worry about, I now realise this is the worst lie ever. she argued with me and wasn't convinced, She went upstairs to get my dad and I was so frightened I ran out of the house, not sure of what I was trying to achienve here but I was only 13 and I panicked. My heart was in my mouth, and only after reaching a few streets away my mum rang my mobile and said if I didn't go home she was going to wake my dad up to come and get me, this frightened the life out of me....so I went home, my dad was sat in the front room and told me that mum had said I had hurt my arm, I said yeah its only a little scratch.....he demanded to see it, I refused and ran upstairs an hid in my room, he shouted at me so much that after about an hour I came down and took it off, he looked at me in disgust and just said I can't believe what youv'e done, he carried on shouting at me, and I felt so ashamed. we never talked about it since that day, which doesn't mean I stopped it just means I got better at hiding it, and the feeling of being ashamed made it worse. A couple of months ago I left home due to increased sh and very, very close to an od, I now live with friends and managed to not do it for a good few months, but the guilt has got on top of me and when I do sh it helps my emotions, helps to settle them, but my question is do I tell? the reaction I got last time was so scary, I don't think i could cope with that again, I know it was a long time ago.....but its always there in the back of my head, how did you find out? what did you do when you found out? how did you feel? whats the best way to tell someone that cares so much about you? were you disappointed?
thanks for taking the time to read this