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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by so sad on Today at 09:36:13 AM »
I think I need more 'me' time but that's not straight forward. My partner is controlling - she doesn't seem to mind me going to costa for an hour at the weekend to do my DBT homework but beyond that - she doesn't like it. I know that isn't right and I shouldn't let it dictate what I do and when but in reality it does. She is retired so is on her own quite a bit so then doesn't like me doing my own thing too often.

I do self-soothe quite a bit even though sometimes it goes against how I'm feeling (self-hate etc) and I do make time to read (lunchtime at work). I'm a bit stuck after that. x
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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Tucan on Today at 07:58:15 AM »
Lol I did wonder what that meant. Bless you. I have been tempted to ring up.
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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by Tucan on Today at 07:57:12 AM »
What can you do to take care of yourself?
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by Tucan on Today at 07:55:59 AM »
Good luck.
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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by so sad on Today at 07:53:24 AM »
I do love a good 'to-do' list and I do structure my day as much as I can. This thing that has been knocked me right off isn't something I know or have ever done. I think its just a tedious task with a lot of it but I'm terrified that I'll c*** it up and let everyone down. I know I'm predicting the future but I can't help it. The fear is huge.

My manager sort of knows about my colleague. They get on really well (he is a nice guy) but I think she is realising that he doesn't do the stuff he should be doing in favour of 'sexy' work that will get him noticed. It really drives me mad that I do all the work but because he does the odd bit of stuff that senior managers see, they all think he is amazing. Very frustrating.

Saw my DBT therapist yesterday and she is concerned that I've taken small overdoses. I did say that I hadn't gone over the max for the day but she said its still too much in 1 go and could result in slow suicide. I hadn't thought about it like that but still not sure I care.
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by terrified heart on Yesterday at 10:55:57 PM »
Thanks both xx

Buddy is such a different character to my others, itís really funny to learn his personality traits. I forgot what it was like to have a young piggy, my girl was over 6.5yrs when I lost her. Buddy is around 1yr old and full of energy.

Heat is actually the biggest help. I have a hot water bottle a lot of the time at home and I have some of those stick on heat packs which I can use when Iím out, although itís a bit expensive to use them all the time. Perhaps a heat rub might help? I could ask the pharmacist at work tomorrow. The GP said I can take anti inflammatories (ibuprofen) again now, but might need to take something to protect my stomach with it. Apparently my AD can make you more likely to have stomach problems with ibuprofen, not that Iíve ever been told that before, despite being on this AD for 7 years!!

Weds does feel quite far away, but at least I know I have an appointment arranged so I havenít got to worry about trying to make one. Iím not sure if I posted this before but Iíve had another appointment sent for the psychologist, itís a week tomorrow (Fri 26th).
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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Vermilion on Yesterday at 10:22:41 PM »
That was supposed to be moods not 'noifd'.

I don't know what happened there!
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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by Vermilion on Yesterday at 10:11:29 PM »
Depression and anxiety does make us over think things and clouds our judgement. I understand how horrible meltdowns are too, I have them frequently    :hug1: :hug2:.

Does the manager know how useless your other colleague is? You might need to explain to your manager how it's affecting you, it's not fair on you. 
Is there any way that you can plan your days? If you have a list of tasks that you can tick off you'll see that you're a lot more productive than you think you are. Plus, it's less stressful if you can plan ahead and have at least a rough idea if the day ahead.

Your manager clearly thinks highly of you, that's why she supports you. It's the depression that is making you feel like a burden when you're not.  :hug1: :hug2:
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by Vermilion on Yesterday at 09:58:42 PM »
I'm sure you and Buddy will  be very happy :).

Have you tried heat packs for your stomach and back? They help me when I have really bad period pain, I know it's not the same as what you have but it might help a bit. I hope the examination goes OK, not the most pleasant of things but hopefully it will find the problem for you.
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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Vermilion on Yesterday at 09:50:50 PM »
You shouldn't feel pressured into associating with people you're not comfortable with, that's not right. I'm sensitive to smells so I understand the struggle with being around smelly people too, though he might well have problems that make him forget about hygiene. See what the others think, by the sounds of things they won't be keen either  ::-\:.

These noifd must be very frustrating and confusing. Have you told any profs? Maybe they could suggest some things that could help until you see the psych. It must be so difficult to handle.  :hug2:
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